Busy, busy, busy or tired….

I have been in hibernation mode, I suppose. I haven’t visited social media technology much the past few months. I have managed to accept my tired days and enjoy my good days. Getting to that point hasn’t been easy. I have gone through a long period of depression, sadness and trying to keep up the good fight. In the end, too much fighting and not accepting that fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue limit me, inevitably, makes things worse.

It isn’t easy accepting limitations. It is even harder to make others close to you accept them, as well. I know it isn’t easy to be on the outside and try understanding the fatigue and limitations. Just imagine being on the inside of the battle!

My pain is managed fairly well. I can live with pain and keep on pushing through. It is the fatigue that really gets me. I want to function, I want to go, go, go. I can’t, though. I just can’t. No one will ever understand the intensity of chronic fatigue without living it. It is alright though. I have accepted it. If I must sleep; I will sleep.

The insomnia cycle is where it really gets me. It never fails, insomnia strikes, when I need sleep the most. I really need to function the next day; I have no choice. I have figured out that my insomnia strikes with the hint of rain in the distance or a drastic shift in weather. But then, I have to sleep an insane amount of hours, soon after.

Awww, the crazy life of battling fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue. I am surviving. Some days I don’t feel like I am living, but I am slowly finding new ways. Now, hopefully, off to sleep, I must go….

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