You see fall, I see fatigue

The weather controls my life!

I can’t plan too far in advance because the weather often changes and with each change; my body and energy decide to change, too. This can’t ever be a good change. I crash, and I crash hard!
Most probably don’t even notice a few degrees difference, here and there, but not me. I can tell you the weather is going to change, even if only just a degree or two, at least a couple of days ahead. My weather premonitions come with aches, pains and extreme fatigue.
My aches and pains come in the form of various joint pains and overall muscle fatigue. The joints that hurt are never the same, jumping from one to another, with each changing weather pattern. Yesterday it was my knee, two days before it was my back and the week before, my shoulders. My joints ache to a debilitating point, ranging from limited range of motion to inability to use them.
The muscle fatigue is like none I ever experienced before. It is like getting sick with the flu, but worse. Just lifting my arm or moving my leg seems like an extreme feat. My muscles don’t want to work, but resting doesn’t provide any relief. It is like I ran a race, but haven’t even gotten out of bed. The tension doesn’t ease with stretching or medication.
The fatigue is so amazingly extreme that it even shocks me. Who knew someone could be so very tired. I can sleep 12 hours straight, wake for an hour and go right back to bed for 8 more. It is insane, it baffles me; and drives me into misery. I do not want to be so tired; I do not want to sleep to the extreme. My body gives me no choice. I cannot stay awake or function, no matter how hard I try or how much caffeine I ingest. The more I fight it, the more tired I get and the sicker I feel. If I don’t give in, I get even worse. When my body decides it needs to sleep; I must sleep.

I have tried battling it all, to my detriment. See, if I don’t give in and allow my body to rest; I get worse. The pains come on stronger and more debilitating, the fatigue is even more extreme, and I physically get sick. My throat will start hurting, my lymph nodes will become swollen, I will run fever and, literally, become sick.
It sucks, I hate it, and I don’t want this for my life. It is the battle I have been given, though, so pressing forward is all I can do. I hope one day that my body will decide it is miraculously better. I hope to no longer have extreme fatigue, aches and pains. I hope one day there is a better treatment, cure or my body heals itself. I hope one day to feel that I can live life again. Until then, I must limp along and sleep when the weather changes. I must go with the flow of the constant changing of weather patterns and live my life for the good days.